Helpless

Clancey was not doing well this morning. Up until now, he has seemed pretty much himself other than the persistent bleeding from his left nostril. This morning both nostrils were bleeding and from looking at his bed, they had been bleeding most of the night. His left muzzle was twitching and his left eye seems swollen. He did not want his breakfast this morning, this is the first time that Clancey has ever not wanted to eat. Up until now, I have been so focused on finding treatment for him that I have been shoving my feelings aside. It hit me this morning that I could actually lose him. My stomach is in knots today, I am having a hard time focusing on my work. We have an appointment this afternoon to talk to a veterinarian about neoplasene treatment. The hardest part about all of this is the waiting. I feel this urgent need to fix this right now and am helpless to do so.